Prayers

My sweet sister Dawn felt compelled to organized a family and friends fast for me today. I love you Dawn! I'm SUCH a whiner--I'm sure I've left everyone with the impression that I'm a complete wreck as well as a mess. Truth: I'm a little scared to begin new chemotherapy tomorrow. There were some rough patches with old chemo and I don't have the luxury of being on "sick bank" now, with time to suffer with a little dignity, or time to recover sufficiently. I'm faced with another truth: I actually have anxiety on some level that I can't control. This makes me do crazy things like black out, hyperventilate, vomit..."I'm so degraditated!" (Amy March) I want to recover from cancer. I'm willing to keep trying. I hope to be able to control myself, but it CAN be overwhelming. So thank you, everyone fasting and praying for me today. I'm very grateful for our faithful trust in a Heavenly Father who knows why each experience has to be. I'm usually bad at humble, but I hope He can see me now.